BruceVC Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 I've had pretty bad cases of winter depression in the past, but funnily, I'm probably having my best year in that regard. Practically everything is going down the crapper, yet I can be almost totally Zen about it. Had the first talk with my boss in almost a month now. She still thinks I'm the scum of the earth, yet seems totally surprised I no longer want to keep working here. Nep, do you want me to talk to her. I'll explain to her that you are a nice and decent guy? "Abashed the devil stood and felt how awful goodness is and saw Virtue in her shape how lovely: and pined his loss” John Milton "We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.” - George Bernard Shaw "What counts in life is not the mere fact that we have lived. It is what difference we have made to the lives of others that will determine the significance of the life we lead" - Nelson Mandela
Shryke Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 first day back at work today and it was sloooooow good thing i remembered to take a book with me when your mind works against you - fight back with substance abuse!
Nepenthe Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 I've had pretty bad cases of winter depression in the past, but funnily, I'm probably having my best year in that regard. Practically everything is going down the crapper, yet I can be almost totally Zen about it. Had the first talk with my boss in almost a month now. She still thinks I'm the scum of the earth, yet seems totally surprised I no longer want to keep working here. Nep, do you want me to talk to her. I'll explain to her that you are a nice and decent guy? It's pretty obvious to most people here, hell our personnel director's already promised to vouch for me, if necessary. I think it's safe to say that they made a wrong recruitment in me... I'm specialised in part of what I'm supposed to do here, but a big part of the rest is entirely new to me. During the summer she decided that I should "help" other people by doing random memos for their projects etc. Which in turn meant that I had to spend even more time learning new stuff for minimal gain. Couple that with the massive stress I had over the dissertation and all, I wasn't at my best, either. But they're trying to lay everything down as some type of personal failing on my part, and I'm not gonna stand for it. You're a cheery wee bugger, Nep. Have I ever said that? Reapercussions
Raithe Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 Not being the best Monday start... a few lurking things hanging on the edge of my mind that have me gnawing away in annoyance / griefy distraction. As twelth night was yesterday, got all the decorations down and packed up, so today it's just tidying up the effects from the tree.. A few work things I should probably poke at, found out that "because it was christmas!" my mother hadn't actually been checking her sugar levels so she wouldn't feel guilty/worried over christmas food... and she has a fasting blood test scheduled this wednesday. Haven't heard anything from someone I expected to over christmas and the new year, so that's bubbling along on annoyance/worry in the background.. The big dog keeps barking all protectively if anyone walks in front of the house today, so that's been fun. Although I did get notice that my copy of the final WoT book is in the post, so possibly might arrive manana. I think that calls for mass escapism from life in general, so I think I'll see if I can organise things so I can pretty much spend most of tomorrow holed up away from people in general and read... "Cuius testiculos habeas, habeas cardia et cerebellum."
Malcador Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 First 5 day work week in a month, really got used to 4 and 3 day weeks. Seems everyone else took the last 2 weeks off too, roads were crowded on the way in. Why has elegance found so little following? Elegance has the disadvantage that hard work is needed to achieve it and a good education to appreciate it. - Edsger Wybe Dijkstra
JFSOCC Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 Today I did everything that was expected of me, but little that I liked. Remember: Argue the point, not the person. Remain polite and constructive. Friendly forums have friendly debate. There's no shame in being wrong. If you don't have something to add, don't post for the sake of it. And don't be afraid to post thoughts you are uncertain about, that's what discussion is for.---Pet threads, everyone has them. I love imagining Gods, Monsters, Factions and Weapons.
TrashMan Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 Worked returned home and made lunch Browsed forums.. Watched stuff on YouTube cleaned the aparment. Played WoT Sighed a lot because of nostalgia, the situation in the world and human stupidity. * YOU ARE A WRONGULARITY FROM WHICH NO RIGHT CAN ESCAPE! *Chuck Norris was wrong once - He thought HE made a mistake!
LadyCrimson Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 Busy procrastinating. Lots of things to do this week but all my brain wants to do right now is shut off, which isn't helping. “Things are as they are. Looking out into the universe at night, we make no comparisons between right and wrong stars, nor between well and badly arranged constellations.” – Alan Watts
WDeranged Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Dad died today, I'm sitting at my parent's dining table at 2am, wearing my dad's slippers and drinking sherry while my mum tries to sleep in their bed, the one person I wanted to be there for me wasn't, she's ignoring my phone calls and messages...or she's asleep, either way this is a long dark night of the soul.
Gfted1 Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Really sorry to hear that. Condolences. "I'm your biggest fan, Ill follow you until you love me, Papa"
WDeranged Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Thanks mate, I don't know why I'm spilling my guts here but I need to distract myself somehow...this place is kind of my night time home these days.
alanschu Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Sorry to hear about that. I had a close call with my Mom the past week, with her being in ICU with a bout against Influenza A.
Calax Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Given we're on the subject of parents and other family members health... Currently in my life I'm being terminated academically (for a semester max, and I'm appealing) so at least for this week I'm out of insurance. If it sticks I'm out of insurance for 5 months (and will probably end up on the piddly mcd's plan created due to the mandate). So that's... fun. Meanwhile my grandparents, were hit by sandy, lost power four times, lived with an aunt and uncle for about 3 weeks overall. Then when they got back to their house they had a week or two to get ready for Christmas. BUT my grandmother has hit hardcore Alzheimers, and forgot (TWICE) that she sent our family gifts already so I ended up getting two checks PLUS gifts from her/on her behalf. Something you'd laugh off normally, but then she got the flu or something similar, and has been in the hospital since Christmas. My mom and her sisters decided that their parents couldn't live alone any more and are working to put them into assisted living. They keep telling my grandmother what they're doing and she promptly forgets 6 hours later. Currently she's in quarantine, and my mom has to head back to California to prep for classes. Dad (retired) is staying there to help with the transition. Both have been very adamant over the past 6-12 months that I shouldn't expect to have them around beyond 5 more years. Victor of the 5 year fan fic competition! Kevin Butler will awesome your face off.
JFSOCC Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Dad died today, I'm sitting at my parent's dining table at 2am, wearing my dad's slippers and drinking sherry while my mum tries to sleep in their bed, the one person I wanted to be there for me wasn't, she's ignoring my phone calls and messages...or she's asleep, either way this is a long dark night of the soul. My condolences as well. Sucks losing your dad. Remember: Argue the point, not the person. Remain polite and constructive. Friendly forums have friendly debate. There's no shame in being wrong. If you don't have something to add, don't post for the sake of it. And don't be afraid to post thoughts you are uncertain about, that's what discussion is for.---Pet threads, everyone has them. I love imagining Gods, Monsters, Factions and Weapons.
Raithe Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Condolences WD. Well I got about 5 hours sleep, poking at various tasks today. Should have another look at the paperwork for renewing my passport. Got some emails from the groom about the suits he wants to get us all wearing for his wedding. As best man I kind of have to match, so.. he's talking about getting some "western style/ semi-cowboy" formal suits made to order in Mexico city from some place near his fiancee's family, then going in to get any final adjustments made a few days before the wedding. I've been skipping the "learn spanish cd's" the past couple of weeks over christmas, so I guess I should get back to them. That and I need to write my best man's speech out sooner rather then later, so I can get that translated into spanish and learn that.. Dang, time flies past. Hm, waiting on Parcel Force to arrive with my copy of the final WoT book. They left the depot around 0430..and they still haven't turned up here at noon. "Cuius testiculos habeas, habeas cardia et cerebellum."
Rosbjerg Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Man sorry to hear that WD, I know how you feel - lost my Dad too a while back. Hang in there buddy and don't drown yourself in booze or staying up late, celebrate his life and remember the great times. 1 Fortune favors the bald.
Nepenthe Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 So sorry, WD. "western style/ semi-cowboy" formal suits Sounds positively Lovecraftian. You're a cheery wee bugger, Nep. Have I ever said that? Reapercussions
TrashMan Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Dad died today, I'm sitting at my parent's dining table at 2am, wearing my dad's slippers and drinking sherry while my mum tries to sleep in their bed, the one person I wanted to be there for me wasn't, she's ignoring my phone calls and messages...or she's asleep, either way this is a long dark night of the soul. Condolences. It's never easy. Half of my family is in the hospital ATM. Grandpa has cancer. Grandma fell and broke her arm and pelvis. Dad is scheduled for an operation (intestines). Mother has back problems. Fun times... * YOU ARE A WRONGULARITY FROM WHICH NO RIGHT CAN ESCAPE! *Chuck Norris was wrong once - He thought HE made a mistake!
WDeranged Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Thanks for all the comments, I only managed to get a few hours sleep on a ****ty fold out bed so I'm in numb mode but all things considered we're coping well, obviously it's early days but we keep telling ourselves that it was better for him to suddenly die here rather than in a hospital after months of agony.
Malcador Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Thanks for all the comments, I only managed to get a few hours sleep on a ****ty fold out bed so I'm in numb mode but all things considered we're coping well, obviously it's early days but we keep telling ourselves that it was better for him to suddenly die here rather than in a hospital after months of agony. Well, hope you guys continue to cope with it. Want today to be over with, myself. Why has elegance found so little following? Elegance has the disadvantage that hard work is needed to achieve it and a good education to appreciate it. - Edsger Wybe Dijkstra
mkreku Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Nep, do you want me to talk to her. I'll explain to her that you are a nice and decent guy? It's pretty obvious to most people here... What?? NO! You're Finnish. Go away. Swedes, go to: Spel2, for the latest game reviews in swedish!
Orogun01 Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Sorry to hear about your dad WD I'd say the answer to that question is kind of like the answer to "who's the sucker in this poker game?"* *If you can't tell, it's you.
Nepenthe Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 (edited) Nep, do you want me to talk to her. I'll explain to her that you are a nice and decent guy? It's pretty obvious to most people here... What?? NO! You're Finnish. Go away. Here was a refence to my workplace, not "here", my supercilious swedish friend. Edited January 8, 2013 by Nepenthe You're a cheery wee bugger, Nep. Have I ever said that? Reapercussions
Rosbjerg Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Week 3 of Paleo eating, non-smoking and serious workout.. This is actually having a major impact! I love it. Does anyone eat paleo here? - if so, do you know any good breakfast recipies? (except scrambled eggs) Fortune favors the bald.
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