WDeranged

I can't beat a vasectomy so I won't even try I'm currently bunkered down in my mum's village waiting for the snow to piss off, I've got wild dreams of going home tomorrow.

My mum clucks at me like a mother hen and it has occasionally made me lose my tempter over the years, she's been a housewife all her life so a world where the bin bags haven't been changed isn't a place she wants to live

Hmm, Fallout TV show eh?

Sounds like you need to get out of there as fast as possible but I'm sure you know that, not much else I can say really, in my experience (and from what I've seen in others) parents start to respect you far more when you're off doing your own thing, some people just can't live under the same roof without running into eachother all the time

You could try telling her exactly how you feel, but maybe tell her how much you freaking hate the things that she does rather than that you hate her...it might seem impossible but I've solved quite a few impassable situations by choking down the shame and plainly saying how I feel. It's important to remember that in her own twisted motherly way she thinks she's trying to help you with these suggestions *edit* As for what I did today, I'm sitting at my brother's shop after a good night's sleep in my own bed, I feel closer to normal than I have done in a while, we're all trying to come up with something to say at Dad's funeral, there's so much I could say that my mind is going blank.

My brother went to pick up Dad's death certificate today, the cause was exactly what we suspected, which is a terrible kind of mercy but it at least confirms that his death was very quick, I'm back home for a few days so I need to try my best to wind down and start dealing with my own grief, I feel ten years older

This would be the crux of the matter for me, they're sold to us as the apocalypse made flesh, the single biggest reason that we need to exchange liberties for constant vigilance, the world was on the brink of nuclear annihilation for the better part of a century and the powers that be still couldn't get away with these stunts. I'm certainly not a pacifist, I do believe there can be a "just war" and I know that violence is sometimes necessary but I demand truthful reasons if I'm going to go along with it, the waters are so muddy with propaganda and agenda that I don't believe any of us can think clearly on this matter.

After so many years of this I can't help but get sceptical when meaningless phrases such as "with links to", "associated with" and "backed by" are repeated ad nauseum when referring to any brown skinned fighters that need tarring with the Al Qaeda brush. Sure there are bad people and they probably do need beating down but I resent being sold the myth of a Cobra like global network of highly organised cave dwellers.

They just dropped the charges against him...how the hell does that work?

If it wasn't for Fallout 3 it's almost certain I'd never have (re)discovered the previous games, and it's a good thing because I really enjoyed them, maybe not as much as I loved the open world of Fallout 3 but they showed me what good writing and quest design was. Ultimately I've never been a fan of turn based games, 3D open worlds have always won my attention and I'm a total sucker for Bethesda's exploration style, in my opinion Fallout 3 is possibly the most explorable and interesting landscape I've seen in a computer game, New Vegas may be one of the most reactive and believable RPGs...and it very well might be my favourite Fallout game, but the Capital Wasteland is just so much damn fun to dig through. I do look forward to Fallout 4, I don't really have a doubt that the world will be interesting enough for me, I just worry that we're going to see fewer skills and the return of derpy factions which apparently never interact with eachother until the big showdown.

Went to buy a suit today, I was running on four hours empty sleep and the changing rooms smelt of human faeces which is always a sign of quality, on the bright side it didn't take me long to find something, normally it's a freaking nightmare. Currently I'm drinking port and watching Beverly Hills Cop, also trying to decide when would be the right time to leave my mum alone here, my health is suffering a bit because I'm away from my bike and daily routine, I just sit here smoking, drinking and eating

I'm reminded of a poem that my half asleep brain can't quite remember, something about living in a world where the righteous are impotent and evildoers burn with the fire of dedication, sad stuff.

After having a few days to digest the info I've decided I quite like the Numenera setting as a Planescape alternative, the Torment name usage still rankles a bit though.

I think it's probably time to give this a thread what with all the rumours and the fact that Obsidian have a deep connection with the franchise Take it all with a pinch of salt but... http://www.oxm.co.uk...erpunk-setting/ "Former Obsidian developers said to be working on project" "alleges that it will adopt certain RPG mechanics from Skyrim." - First and foremost, the game will take place in Boston, and be kind of a direct sequel to Fallout 3 with a few groups returning. - From what it sounds like, "The Institute" is pretty much the downtown DC or New Vegas of this game. Boston is going to be unlike anything we've seen in a Fallout game before, with buildings more on par with cyberpunk and retro-futurism. - Androids play a big part in this game. The railroad from Fallout 3 is a faction. The enemies of the railroad is "the Plantation" -- a group who force Androids to farm so that Humans can get food. The Institute is highly advanced and probably obtained or built their own GECK to start a farm. - Due to complaints about using Super Mutants and the Brotherhood of Steel in Fallout 3 excessively and going against the lore too much, Bethesda has decided to avoid using these groups. Bethesda wants to make a new "race" (think Ghoul, Super Mutant) which will be central to Boston. Bethesda is currently looking at Lovecraftian fiction since Boston is around "Lovecraft Country". - Bethesda has no plans to reinvent the leveling up system to make it more like Skyrim and want to make Fallout 4 more distinct from Skyrim since of the complaints that Oblivion and Fallout 3 were too similar. Bethesda is thinking about introducing a system, similar to Skyrim, where your skills can level up if you perform certain tasks.

At home for a night, chemically adjusted to better cope with reality for the evening, lamb cooking in the oven and veggies on the boil, music, youtube, random bull**** with friends...just so glad to be home for one night, my mum is coping well enough that I left my nephew with her

If Fallout 4 is going to use the rebranded Gamebryo (which is will) then clockspeed will be more important than how many cores you have, an overclocked quad core at 5ghz will be a better choice than a hex core running at 3.8ghz, RAM also won't be a huge issue, you won't need more than 4GB unless Bethesda finally produce a 64bit executable, even then I would bet that you'll only need extreme amounts of RAM if you're going to use a silly amount of mods.

I'm missing my cat a bit, mum's mood is picking up so I'd like to go home for a day or two, we finally turned the TV on tonight and she enjoyed her shows but the funeral director is coming tomorrow so there's plenty of grim left this week

Bards Tale does look cringeworthy but I reassure myself that it was just the product of a deflated Fargo and his small team at InXile, Wasteland 2 has a lot of talented guys helping out officially and unofficially.

http://www.eurogamer...-4-announcement DUN DUN DUNNNNN Wanna bet it has less skills?

I hate to be sceptical about this after the Project Eternity hype, something about it doesn't sit right with me but I don't have the head space to articulate my feelings at the moment.

Today I've had to deal with the coroner's office, they're wanting to do a post mortem on dad and my mum is understandably horrified, apparently we have no say in the matter even though my dad has been severely ill for over 15 years and all his doctors told us he was terminal...we do have the option of taking it to court but I honestly worry that the effort would kill my mum, we're probably just going to acquiesce

Read a hundred or two pages of Dune last week, probably goes without saying by now but it's very good

There's a possibility, I bike everywhere and my town is just a collection of steep hills, lately I've been putting more power into it, gotta take these things into consideration I suppose.

I'm streaming Deep Space Nine episodes to try and feel some of the normality of home, things are easing up a bit here thank god, spent most of the day sitting on the sofa with my mum, sobbing and I suppose engaging in amateur therapy. The family is rallying round which is heartening, I'm pretty damn keen to go home for a shower and a change of clothes so I'm thankful that my nephew has got time off work to come grab me tomorrow, he's also going to take me and his dad to buy some suitable funeral clothes. On the subject of dieting, I've been as heavy as 24 st (336 lbs) and all I know is when I eat less processed sugar, wheat and grease I lose weight, I'm 15.5 st currently and working my way down to 14 but it's sloowwwwwww.

Thanks for all the comments, I only managed to get a few hours sleep on a ****ty fold out bed so I'm in numb mode but all things considered we're coping well, obviously it's early days but we keep telling ourselves that it was better for him to suddenly die here rather than in a hospital after months of agony.