Walsingham Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 (edited) Not a bad day. My eroded patience snapped, and I have transferred my phone line, broadband, bank, website, and e-retailer accounts in a burst of righteous fury. Oh, hold on. I was going to change my gas and electricity... EDIT: Done. Awesome. Edited August 17, 2011 by Walsingham "It wasn't lies. It was just... bull****"." -Elwood Blues tarna's dead; processing... complete. Disappointed by Universe. RIP Hades/Sand/etc. Here's hoping your next alt has a harp.
Raithe Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 Not a bad day. My eroded patience snapped, and I have transferred my phone line, broadband, bank, website, and e-retailer accounts in a burst of righteous fury. Oh, hold on. I was going to change my gas and electricity... Is that kind of "evolve or die" type of moment? "Cuius testiculos habeas, habeas cardia et cerebellum."
Walsingham Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 Feels pretty good. Probably go horribly wrong as all the details conflict. "It wasn't lies. It was just... bull****"." -Elwood Blues tarna's dead; processing... complete. Disappointed by Universe. RIP Hades/Sand/etc. Here's hoping your next alt has a harp.
Gfted1 Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 >.> my car is having issues with the CD player (It thinks I keep inserting a disk...) As a poor mans fix, you can simply insert the CD and then toggle between radio and CD by using the buttons. "I'm your biggest fan, Ill follow you until you love me, Papa"
Syraxis Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 (edited) Wow 4 cookies, did you ask her out yet? What for, I'm already getting free cookies. Yeah but for how long? Why get free cookies one day when you can get a steady supply over time. Edited August 17, 2011 by Syraxis
Malcador Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 Yeah but for how long? Why get free cookies one day when you can get a steady supply over time. The supply is guaranteed as long as they keep baking them. At the end of the day the unsold baked goods get taken by the staff, or binned. So I just get those, not the -best- chocolate chip cookies, but can't complain. Why has elegance found so little following? Elegance has the disadvantage that hard work is needed to achieve it and a good education to appreciate it. - Edsger Wybe Dijkstra
Raithe Posted August 17, 2011 Posted August 17, 2011 Trying to read a report seriously rather then scanning through it. I keep losing focus. Or at least I keep having that bit where the words all seem to start phasing in and out of each other. Yeesh. I need to take a moment and make another attempt at it. "Cuius testiculos habeas, habeas cardia et cerebellum."
Orogun01 Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 Today my NVIDIA driver gave me a code 43, which means that now i'm running in low res with no GPU. I need to change my PSN password but they don't sent the automated e-mail so now I have to call tech support. So all in all it's been a Murphy day, but i'm zen through it all. (And by zen I mean completely misanthropic just a hair trigger from snapping someone in half) I'd say the answer to that question is kind of like the answer to "who's the sucker in this poker game?"* *If you can't tell, it's you.
Shryke Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 well i found out what covers i'm supposed to be learning for the band i've inadvertently been joined to Sisters of Mercy - Marian Icehouse - Great Southern Land i think i'll need to brush up on my german pronunciation for the verse in Marian when your mind works against you - fight back with substance abuse!
tarna Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 Got diagnosed ( yesterday ) with stage IV kidney cancer.Beat that Forumites! :wink: Presently enjoying a delightful mix of percodan and rum and coke. Tomorrow's schedule is a fast from midnight ( 1 1/4 hrs from now ) til 2 PM or later while they drill out a biopsy to decide if/what they are going to do. Surgery presently scheduled for Tuesday the 23rd. Pictures at 11. :wink: Hey tarna, Gfted1 directed me here, really sorry ti hear about your diagnosis, kick cancer's ass! (Sarah AKA Calliope AKA Pirotess and however many other user names) x Hey Lady! I certainly do remember you from BIS as well as Interplay and The Lair. Good to see that you are still around. How's Preacher? Pissy Missy? Got a brain MRI today ( to find nothing but a sign saying "Space For Rent" ) as well as a lung CAT scan. Apparently kidney cancer spreads to brain, bone, lung and something else ( I don't remember ). Blood work says that bone chemistry looks good and the other scans should indicate if cancer has spread elsewhere or not. Go to see my oncologist tomorrow so I guess I'll get the happy news then. Lung damage I can work with. Brain cancer...well S**t happens. Tune in tomorrow fans...Same Bat-Time...Same Bat-Channel. Ruminations... When a man has no Future, the Present passes too quickly to be assimilated and only the static Past has value.
Walsingham Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 I won't lie Tarna. That's not good news. Nearly put me off my coffee at 8000 miles... However, if you'r going a chemo route, having multiple sites isn't necessarily as bad as it sounds. You're gassing the little ****er, not surgically striking it. Chemo your kidneys and you chemo everything else anyway. Do you know yet if the metastases have protective shells around them? "It wasn't lies. It was just... bull****"." -Elwood Blues tarna's dead; processing... complete. Disappointed by Universe. RIP Hades/Sand/etc. Here's hoping your next alt has a harp.
Nightshape Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 One can but admire Tarna's positive outlook. I came up with Crate 3.0 technology. Crate 4.0 - we shall just have to wait and see.Down and out on the Solomani RimNow the Spinward Marches don't look so GRIM!
Raithe Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 A positive outlook is supposedly helpful in many situations.. but here's to hoping things turn out in a good way for Tarna. Hm, mom had one hospital appointment this morning so I was up earlier then normal. The joys , having to see the right specialist anaesthetologist this time that they ****ed up last time. It's weird to think that anaesthotology has become that specialised a field.. you now have them specialising in limbs.. Seriously. There's an anaesthotologist who specialises in "lower limbs" and one who specialises in "upper arms and hands"... Yeesh, I think they're beginning to overkill the specialisation there. Kind of amusing, mom doing her "I'm happy to go with a nerve block rather then needing general..." then later as the anaesthatist picks up on her allergies to Iodine and such.. mom did the whole "yes well... I've had x number of surgeries now where they miss/forget that and have given me iodine..why do you think I'm so happy and willing to just go with a nerve block? This way I can yell at them if they try to do it again..." Now it's the wait and see while they sort out the hospital date for the surgery. Waiting lists might just push it to beyond October.. which given that it was supposed to happen the other week and their screwup cancelled that out.. "Cuius testiculos habeas, habeas cardia et cerebellum."
Walsingham Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 One can but admire Tarna's positive outlook. Damn right. I only hope that if I ever face it I do half as well. Having said that, mate. Feel free to panic in front of us. We can throw peanuts. "It wasn't lies. It was just... bull****"." -Elwood Blues tarna's dead; processing... complete. Disappointed by Universe. RIP Hades/Sand/etc. Here's hoping your next alt has a harp.
Krookie Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 I'm surprised Volo hasn't shown up to argue Tarna yet
Nightshape Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 I'm surprised Volo hasn't shown up to argue Tarna yet Surely, even Volo isn't that much of a prick! I came up with Crate 3.0 technology. Crate 4.0 - we shall just have to wait and see.Down and out on the Solomani RimNow the Spinward Marches don't look so GRIM!
Raithe Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 Ah the sweet joys of a heavy storm. On the one hand.. you can admire the tempestuous grandeur of nature. On the other.. it bloody killed my internet for most of the day. Although.. to be fair, there's also the 6 weeks roadworks going on outside where they're digging down to do stuff with the gaslines and assorted pipework that might be to blame. .. Or possibly both causing it together... It's an evil conspiracy I tell you... "Cuius testiculos habeas, habeas cardia et cerebellum."
Malcador Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 Another day of - On the bright side, I get to tear up lots of cardboard boxes tonight, that's always a good stress reliever. Not -as- fun as taking a sledgehammer to a 1983 Civic or something like we did back in school. Why has elegance found so little following? Elegance has the disadvantage that hard work is needed to achieve it and a good education to appreciate it. - Edsger Wybe Dijkstra
Flouride Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 I just witnessed HJK beat Schalke 04 2-0. Unbeliavable. Hate the living, love the dead.
Walsingham Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 Another day of - On the bright side, I get to tear up lots of cardboard boxes tonight, that's always a good stress reliever. Not -as- fun as taking a sledgehammer to a 1983 Civic or something like we did back in school. LOL. I haven't done that since school. Shredded 8 large boxes to get over being dumped, one time. Hell of a mess. Happy days... "It wasn't lies. It was just... bull****"." -Elwood Blues tarna's dead; processing... complete. Disappointed by Universe. RIP Hades/Sand/etc. Here's hoping your next alt has a harp.
Syraxis Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 You know what's awesome about NJ? Pork roll (also called Taylor Ham), what a glorious food stuff.
Enoch Posted August 18, 2011 Posted August 18, 2011 (edited) You know what's awesome about NJ? Pork roll (also called Taylor Ham), what a glorious food stuff. Yes. (For the un-initiated, it is in a form similar to salami or bologna, but with different flavoring and generally cut to about 1/4-inch thickness and pan-fried. Best served with an over-easy egg or two and some cheese on a kaiser roll.) Edited August 18, 2011 by Enoch
tarna Posted August 19, 2011 Posted August 19, 2011 (edited) One can but admire Tarna's positive outlook. There's something to the saying 'Dying Well'. I don't wish to be remembered as a sniveler. Besides, talking s**t is way more entertaing than crying about the 'unfairness' of Fate. Feel free to panic in front of us. We can throw peanuts. I knew I could count on you guys. I'm surprised Volo hasn't shown up to argue Tarna yet Surely, even Volo isn't that much of a prick! Hey now! I like Volo. Good news and bad news. The good news is that I am now taking 15 mg of morphine twice a day. The bad news is that it's woefully insufficient. Imagine getting kicked in the abdomin very hard. Now imagine getting kicked a few dozen more times. Good times eh? Good news and bad news. The good news is that the CT scan for my lungs came back clear. So did the MRI of my brain ( nothing there for the cancer to eat ). The bad news is that apparently there is no cure for kidney cancer that has spread. Also, kidney cancer does not show up on a PET scan so it cannot be located that way. I would imagine that they will be taking the knives and forks to me next week as my oncologist says that they must remove the kidney ( with it's tennis ball sized growth ), two other abdominal growths as well as some nearby lymph nodes. The spot on my liver they may or may not address at that time. This and chemo should buy me 2-5 years ( maybe ). Good news and bad news. The good news is that there is a treatment that has a 4 percent success rate. It's called IL2. The bad news is that I would spent 2-3 days in intensive care getting a treatment every 8 hours during that time, three weeks off then repeating the treatments over again. It kills 3 percent of it's recipients outright. I don't even get my 2-5 years to settle my affairs. Good news and bad news. The good news is that I'm finishing posting for now. The bad news is that I'll probably be back to irritate you guys later. Edited August 19, 2011 by tarna Ruminations... When a man has no Future, the Present passes too quickly to be assimilated and only the static Past has value.
Hurlshort Posted August 19, 2011 Posted August 19, 2011 Hey, that 2-5 years is great news Tarna. So much can happen in that time! Wishing you the best. I have to be honest, this is scaring the crap out of me. I'm supposed to go get my first physical some time this year now that I'm in my 30's. Your story has me torn between rushing to the doctor and hiding under my desk.
Nightshape Posted August 19, 2011 Posted August 19, 2011 2-5 years, that's better than my outlook. Alcoholism will take me out WELL before then. I came up with Crate 3.0 technology. Crate 4.0 - we shall just have to wait and see.Down and out on the Solomani RimNow the Spinward Marches don't look so GRIM!
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