... And history (and Rome: Total Realism)!
Maybe I can give you some advice or something.
I want to become a writer and/or actor. And guess what? I’m confident that I’ll succeed in becoming a writer, an actor, or both. Of course I’m prepared for the very possible possibility that I’ll fail, thus I haven’t set myself up for disappointment, but… I like my chances. What can I say? I’m optimistic to the point of almost being self-delusional.
It's not about your commitment and talent, it has a lot to do with luck, too. (Unless you are just interested in writing ANYTHING to make money, then you can become quite successful writing newpaper columns or advertisement scripts, etc.)
Isn’t being meta-human satisfying enough?
Nothing is ever enough!