Let me just get this clear: do you loathe your own interpretation of God or the God other people have found faith in?
I believe every person once in his/her life will try to search for higher meaning in life. Whether you are a Muslim or a Christian, you have searched within yourself and found your answer. You may explain what you have found differently, but I think you are just walking in different paths towards the same destination and I hope it's up where you are headed.