Rosbjerg

Spend more than I had..

It looks good, but not very functional, all those spikes willl catch swords/weapons rather than deflect them.

Well it was only part 1 of a series of 5 dreams (all of which woke me up in shock), but in essence yes - yes it is.

That's why it's so much easier skipping straight to the *biiip* and the *biip* with *biip*.. God I love that..

So you're saying I should keep having meaningless relations with women, but as I start becoming emotionally distant, use humor to deflect the ever encroaching loneliness .. then hope for a women that will one day burst through my shell of Adonis like good looks and see the real me underneath? And of course all would be well if we stopped there, but in actuality the relationship is doomed because we are both so horribly emotionally scarred, self centered and thoroughly addicted to messing our lives up.. so we never have to face the ever growing disappointment with reality, each other and especially ourselves.. I just now realize I've seen too many romantic comedies.

I think you mean Lucy Flawless.

So what does it say about me when I wake up in a shock, sweating like it was a nightmare.. just as I was about to get married in my dream to a nice girl.. haha

Made a really bad video with the huge rainbow.. and went out and partied a little with some American exchange students.

Lying on a couch, looking up at the ceiling. I'm struck with this profound realization of how I'm just this particular bag of atoms, on a rock, in a solar system, in a galaxy, in a universe.. That RIGHT now it's really happening.. The scale of it.. Who needs drugs when reality is this trippy.

Not a religious guy.. But if I was..

Well that's a bit trickier, but in my experience to avoid addiction you need to avoid unconscious repetition and pleasure and focus on consciously appreciating things... not a good explanation, but I hope you get the meaning. Because existentialist melancholy is essentially, imho, the boredom of unconscious repetition. Like zoo animals slowly going crazy from lack of varying and engaging stimuli.

I call it existential melancholy, but I'm also a pretentious snob. The cure (for me at least) is simply new experiences and pushing out of your comfort zone.

Ha.. Sweden ain't got nothing on us.

Hara-Kiri I'm a big fan of anything feudal Japan, so that helps.. An awesome movie, brutal though (while defnintly gory, it's more the story itself that's pretty harsh). I love how thematically samurai/Ronin film are often very close to American westerns. Edit: and then I realized there's an even better version - the 1962 Seppuku! awesome.

Rodent'ish

Well I gain and loose weight really fast, I've had a fairly inactive 1,5 months and so my weight tend to shoot up. When the pictures you saw where taken I was almost 12 pounds lighter than now.. and soon I'll be there again when I start exercising. But yeah, bmi is only really useful for people who don't exercise. Which is also why I usually go by body fat percentage.

I'm at around 24 bmi now.. But my body fat is almost 20%, what I should've said was "gonna convert fat to muscles"

Reached the epitome of nerd today as I made toast at my desk... a good day. In unrelated news I gained 5 pounds and need to start working out again.

I'm currently only able to play Paradox games it seems.. So I'm switching between Rome and Crusader Kings II.. I'm having a great game right not in the latter, as a muslim ruler. I've taken most of Spain and keeping the decedents of Charles the Great out. But I love the game for the personal story that you and it is able to create. My ruler is now approaching 40 and had no luck getting his wife pregnant, through events a sweet story unfolded where he and his wife found deep love for each other, but were still both heartbroken and stressed that their efforts went unsuccessful for years. I really felt this hardship too, as my game would effectively stop if he died. Now that the wife is pregnant I felt so happy and relieved.. haha That's good game mechanics!

I hope we helped you understand men better.

Ah, i's only as bad as you let 'em.. Always with self respect of course. But if pinching is your thing, then why not?

Yep that was more interesting hah.. The crazy ones are always the most fun..

Hmm, see there's a girl I'd be interested in hearing about heh.

You must've loved Alpha Protocol Woldan..