Made an appointment with my psychiatrist. At this point I am pretty sure I am beyond repair though. Still, I need to have a check up and see if there is indeed a chance for me to live life without having to take medicine. 2 x 100 Fluvoxamine a day, one in the morning and one towards the evening. If I don't take those then anxiety and panic attacks kick in.
I am 36 years old now, it's hard to believe that not just 7 years ago I was busy studying computer science while working at a restaurant on the side to make ends. I even helped my older brother with his debts...
Haven't really left home since 2013 though, mom passed away due to a rare type of cancer and everything went downhill from there. Dad has been taking care of me ever since.
Oh well, you know what they say: 'Das Leben is kein Ponyhof'...