Raithe

There was a reason I told you I crawled into a bottle for awhile Wals. Actually I subsumed and compartmentalised a lot of it for awhile. The party had been at the end of September, I shut down a lot of my feelings and tried to be the moral support and help her deal. Hell, I even made it through the February when they ended up married. It wasn't until her daughter was born that I started to shred and lose control. You can get so far on stiff-upper lip and rigid self-control. That and a damn good amount of self-delusion and bottling emotions up and locking them away rather then deal with them.

Well, to overshare and try to compress a long story... the love-of-my-life went to a birthday party for one of her friends one night when I was working (back during my university days) and someone thought it would be amusing to spike the non-alcoholic punch with a few...chemical additions. Under the influence she and one of her best friends ended up sleeping together, she got pregnant, her and his families are seriously catholic...and both had been trying to push them together as a couple as they grew up together. I actually tried talking about the possibility of..taking the steps of marriage, but she cut me off before I could go anywhere with the run of "This might frack up my life, but I am not going to let it ruin yours". So in a very short amount of time it went from a heavy, serious relationship between us..to her engaged and married in about 2 months with what turned out to be a very..hard and troubled pregnancy. Then her family really didn't like having me around or involved, and shortly after she gave birth she went with the whole.. total cut off comunication levels to stop both of us having to deal with the emotional twistup and feeling crappy. Now x years later, she gets back in contact to apologise for having to do that, admit how much it hurt her to do, tell me she still has feelings for me but will never act on it because it would screw up her family, but she wants to be friends and know how i am.. and doesn't want the husband to know because he might still be a little jealous of how she felt for me back then.... (a few other twists and turns..but thats the basics) See, I told you I felt like some weird soap opera guy wrote some of my life...

There was a reason I stopped keeping tequilla bottles at the end of the bed..

Feeling much more recovered now.. the remnants of the aches and ick of the flu seem to be passing.. although the not-sleeping due to the chills and fevers the past couple of nights has my body clock out of whack..spent half the afternoon in that dozy recuperative state, half-reading, and managing a few things around the house... But going to try an earlyish night and see if that helps. Haven't got any FONV playtime in since the start of the weekend.. now I'm not sure if I've got the oomph to start up a new playthrough.. think it'll have to wait awhile for the mood to be back. On the side-note.. got an Ex who wants to talk with me (actually THE Ex, the consuming love interest, soul tagging, the one you find yourself thinking about 10 years on type of Ex) and keep the whole friendship thing running (and firmly at just the friendship level, nada more).. but apparently wants to keep it a secret from her hubby and family so it won't cause stress. It's.. complicated and a lot of history behind it all. There are times I feel as if my life was partially written as some warped soap opera.

Meh, it's the curse of families spreading sickness around.. as one gets over it..it naturally has to pass to someone else. Luckilly the worst of the chills and fever broke last night..leaving me with just the acheyness and throbbing head. ..That and the really drained tiredness of the lack of proper sleep due to it.. So pop a couple of ibruprofen, then sink into a bath after a fresh cup of tea and see how fresh and compos mentus it leaves me feeling..

Basically just got up to make a cup of tea and get fluid replacement..that and take more aspirin. Spent most of the night awake with the joys of chills and fever of flu. Resorted to the wet flannel over the face to get some cool from the headache. The half check on the family before disapearing back into bed... gah.

.. I've realised why I've been feeling so damnably cruddy this weekend. I've inherited the flu my sister was just getting over. When I mentioned that to her..she smiled..and did a "well, families are supposed to share" comment. So popping some meds and trying to ignore the joint aches, headache, tiredness and general blah. Edit: I am trying to decide if everything lately is the sign of a great start to the autumn/winter period....

The Canterville Ghost.. pre-Scream Neve Campbell and Patrick Stewart as the Ghost.. it's a semi-oldy.. but it's still a quite good adaption of the story.

Ahh, righty-ho...

I didn't think there was one.. the survivors all shot themselves didn't they? You hear the shots..then the guy with the gun shoots himself and you have his dying whimper and the gun dropping.... Or did I totally misread it...

Hm, and the joy of the clocks going back tonight..so technically I'm losing an hours sleep tonight.. So now I'm rolling into "official" all hallows eve time.. Not sure if it's its just that wave of tired that's kicking in for some reason or not.. or maybe listening to too much Loreena McKennit music.. but having that roll of loss and missing the girl I really should be over by now.. that totally inspires the urge to drink copious amounts of alcohol.. Which I shall resist and settle for a large mug of hot chocolate.

Dang it.. did you virtually pass it across to me? Curse you Wals!! Finished off my first playthrough of FONV this morning.. then caught up with reading.. working my way back through the Wheel of Time before the next book is released in November..

It depends on the character build.... I kind of pumped up my lockpicks, science, stealth.. then barter and speech.. There were some fun perks that helped around.. but I couldn't see pumping so many perks on Training ..I mean by the time you reach high level..you've got a lot of skill points if you had high intelligence to start with.. Woops, my bad.I was having a brain fart moment and for some reason thought the Intensive Training was the skill boost.. well, if you've got the money there are always the Implants you can get that give you a bonus of 1 to a stat.. although you can only have so many Implants..

Just have to remember not to kill Cachino early..otherwise it'll break the main quest line for both the NCR and House... Even though I decided to get around it by killing Troike, the other guy, and Big Sal.. I still got word the Omerta tried attacking the strip during the Hoover Dam assault...

Finished my first walkthrough.. and on the one hand.. I love that you actually get comments about the various communities and the effects from your choices on them... On the other.. While one tells me what I did reduced chaos to a minimum.. another tells me that due to the increase in chaos x happened around group x.. and then another tells me that due to the presence of group y thats in the same area as group x, the streets were safe and quiet... It's like some of them almost contradict the "general background" of some of the others..

A chunk of what seems "silly" to a lot of people is how the Fallout world uses the whole concept of.. everything is based around the 'traditional 50's view of what the future would be like'.. and how thats taken to a certain level of..caricature.

Its the Ewok vs Stormtrooper syndrome at work....

On the slightly random tangent.. the Star Wars Saga RPG supplement inspired by The Force Unleashed was actually quite well written with a lot of expansion on what the SW Universe was like during that time frame...

Fallout: Hawaii.... Surfing Glowing Ghouls...

Only certain weapons can be hidden.. so if you're not actually carrying any that qualify... So lets see.. Brass Knuckles, Switchblades, Silenced 22, 9mm, Laser Pistol, Grenades and dynamite... Oh and you'll probably need to remap the quick keys for weapons everytime you go in and out of a casino.. And on the Laser weapons.. Meltdown + Laser Pistol is deadly to use in close quarters..

Isn't that just the Bounty Hunter gear? the Wasteland trenchcat with a little armor? You can also get it by pickpocketing it off Red Lucy after she sleeps with you if you finish off The Thorn Quests... Edit: When you find the dead patrols of Brotherhood..the Armor you pick up from them was listed as Brotherhood T-45 Power Armor.. so I'm wondering if that's the "faction disguise armor" as opposed to the T-45 you earn as a quest reward. And yeah, I prefer the look of the Trenchcoat..but the + to strength for carrying capacity from power armor is so darn useful...

Red. Entertaining in that light and fluffy manner. A few outrightly humerous bits, and seeing Helen Mirren use a large amount of guns is worth it.. The romance sub-plot is used for the humour effect to start with then mostly forgotten abouts in the last half of the film. Brian Cox is quite standout as the aging russian spy who used to be the enemy.. and until he opened his mouth I didn't recognise Richard Dreyfuss in his evil businessman character.. Some nice action sequences, but nothing too overblown.

Waking up from vivid dreaming..to find yourself wrapped up in sheets, really warm..comfortable..(apart from a slow-grinding headache in the background) and the realisation that its cold, grey, and fairly miserable outside.... really makes it an effort to push yourself out of bed and get the day started.....

There's a glitch where if you tell him to go the Lucky 38 to wait for you..he instead returns to the Kings School of Impersonation...

Where do you get the training to wear Power Armor then? The Brotherhood Idolise me..but I've not seen any "get trained in power armor" options...