Thats the short answer to a very complex set of circumstances you presented me with. After the whole, I'm going to get back with my ex and then it didn't work but I'm seeing someone else now and I don't want to talk about how you feel thing, it seems that she doesn't really care about you too much. I dunno, maybe she has done somethings to keep the friendship intact but it all seems like bad juju that will end making you distrustful of relationships and people's intentions.
And I mean, I know it sounds really pathetic, cause I mean, this is obviously how I'm going to feel because I'm stupid, but I think she still has feelings for me but won't admit it because of the distance is too hard for her, when she can get someone closer. I think she needs it to be a physical thing as much as an emotional thing. And I don't mean just sex when I say physical, I mean like, seeing the person every day. So I mean, I know you said it was a rebound thing, and that's probably completely true. Maybe she didn't really care about me. But I can't believe that. She acted like she cared a lot, and still does act like she cares, she just doesn't want to face it. You're probably right, but I really can't let myself believe that in any way. I'm willing to acknowledge it, but I won't tell myself that it's really true, because I don't know how I'd feel if I believed it.