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Curbside pickup is the second greatest innovation of COVID. It minimizes your contact with the other humans.

With regard to the whole Jefferson, statue, founding fathers thing, they were men shaped by the times they lived in. As are we all. Declaring most people "good" or "bad" without consideration of the world they lived in does them a disservice. There are exceptions of course.

Governments are inherently evil. Ayn Rand was a genius. From my cold dead hands will they take my guns!

Hey guys. I’m alone in the house again. I picked G up at the airport Saturday morning and took her straight to the Peabody Hotel in downtown. I had a deluxe room reserved for us with a great view. We spent the whole day in the room just, y’know, enjoying each other’s company. Then in the evening it was dinner at Rizzo’s then champagne at the rooftop bar with live music and the lights of the city below us and the stars above. It was perfect. The next day I brought her back to my place and we spent the day watching the Packers vs Bears and other games. She is a big Packers fan. I don’t think they let you live in Wisconsin if you’re not. That’s something I should probably follow up on. That’s going to be important info soon. We spent four together. I was hoping for longer, but work waits for no one. Plus, she got a little… not sure… hesitant at the end. We got to do some of the fun stuff I had planned but mostly she just wanted to stay at my place. She loved my house and all the stuff. I had hoped she would. She loved the garden and greenhouse and veggies (she is mostly a vegetarian) and the whole thing. But she really liked how much land and the seclusion and privacy of it. My hopes were soaring. I was hoping she would imagine some kind of a future here with me. It was not to be of course. But I knew that. We took a walk down Cold Creek to the river and spent the day talking about us and what our future might be. Her life is not in Tennessee and won’t ever be. She spoke to B on the phone every night we were together. She could never be so far away from her. I told her I knew that, and I’d never ask her to be. I told her I wanted to be part of her life. And if her life is in WI then that is where I’ll go. She was shocked, I think. Then I told her I’d already spoken to a realtor that was handling other stuff for me about selling. I wanted to know how she felt about that. Her reaction was not what I’d expected. I thought that idea would make her happy. It’s not that it didn’t… I couldn’t put my finger on it. We talked some more about it. She has no interest in ever being married again but conceded she might change her mind. I laughed at that comment and told her I had no problem with that. We talked in general about buying land and building houses. How I built my place. She said she would love to have something like that near her hometown. She has always wanted her own horses and a place to board and treat. One thing we haven’t spoken about is money. I got the impression her situation is still not great following what her ex did to her. And B is a full-time student and I’m pretty sure G is helping her. I’ve enjoyed some real financial success following the sale of our business. And I’ve been very careful in managing and investing it. What she is dreaming of is within my means. Especially if I sell my place. I was thinking this but held back from telling her everything. I decided to push that conversation down the road a little way. Something about her hesitation made me cautious. Plus, I’m always wary of the danger of moving too fast. I’m cool with going all in. I’m not sure she is yet. I think it’s best to let her get there on her own. She flew home this morning. She called me when she landed and again when she got home. I’m planning on going up to see her next weekend and spending time up there. Maybe even look at real estate, who knows. But I’m definitely going to slow down a little. I don’t want her feeling pressured.

I suppose this is a good sign. I'm picking G up at the airport in 8 hours and I've got butterflies. I never get butterflies about anything. Haven't in years. Decades.

That reminds me of two funny ones:

Oh don’t get me wrong I’m not terribly put off by that. And given her history it’s understandable. That’s why long-distance relationships suck. I have always been a completely open book to both of my ex’s and everyone else I’ve been in relationships with. She has asked me numerous times about ex’s. That seems to be in her head and all I can do is tell her everything and tell it truthfully. Good and bad. She does not physically resemble either of my ex’s in any way. My first wife’s parents were both from Cuba. She was dark haired, dark eyed, fiery personality, an absolute stunner to look at. Way out of my league I thought. But I wasn’t letting THAT stop me from trying! I still miss her sometimes. She was the love of my life. But she was cold in the end. Stephanie is short, just a little on the plump side but in a way that’s endearing. Short red hair, freckles, very cute and very smart. I’m 6’4” just a shade under 2 meters tall so there was big height difference between us. We used to laugh about that. G is tall, just a little shorter than me. Blonde hair and sky blue eyes. She is lean and athletic and loves outdoor activities like hiking and horseback riding.. I think she is very pretty but I suspect she would disagree for reasons I can’t guess. These are the only three women I’ve loved in this life and they are all so different in every conceivable way it’s safe to say I don’t have a “type”.

I was up half the night talking to G via FaceTime. It was fun. She will be here tomorrow morning. Very happy about that. I have more than a suspicion that she has a jealous/insecure streak. That is the reason she calls late at night. She has nothing to worry about.

Money is too hard to come by to be reckless with in investments. Purely my opinion. A bloop single is more effective than a home run if you strike out while trying to hit a home run.

3 days to go….

REVEALED: FACEBOOK’S SECRET BLACKLIST OF “DANGEROUS INDIVIDUALS AND ORGANIZATIONS” Very disappointed I didn't make the list. Have to up my game a bit!

No freaking WAY am I wearing a red shirt with him on board!

I was yawning through the first to acts of, like you said, generic horror movie tropes. I was hoping the payoff would well you know pay off. But I guess I just couldn’t suspend disbelief that far.

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I watched Malignant on HBO Max on Sunday. It sucked. No, I mean it really, really, really, really, sucked. Two hours of my life I'll never bet back.

Not happy. Not happy at all.

I call BS. No engineer is paid enough to afford that view!

The reality is never quite what you dreamt!

Apparently Trump had a rally somewhere this weekend and all but said he’s running for 2024. So any hopes of a GOP return to sanity appear to be vanishing. Maybe he won’t get through the Primaries this time. Maybe support will coalesce around a better candidate. There are a handful of Republicans I would not mind seeing in the White House. Ironically enough I don’t think any of them are planning on running.