yes
I never had anyone very close to me die before
i'm numb
eventually the good memories will come and overwhelm my defenses i put up to protect myself from the hurt im just numb right now
it s weird i am on here talking about it. Jorian when his father died, he came online and talked about it, and at that time i wondered why are you online, why aren't you with your familiyy? we all grieve differently i guess, i dont want to be around family and friends right now. but I have the need to talk about it and get it out of my system.
Just so numb right now. I just saw her last night and a few hours after i left she was gone.