Mostly household chores and weekly assignments for my postgraduate studies. And um... hobbies in general (not work, I know). As silly as it sounds, I can never seem to find the time to read all the books I've prepared for myself, paint minis, etc... even though objectively I'm not hurting for free time.
Both sound like good ideas. I'm definitely guilty of getting overwhelmed by the accumulation of neglected to-dos. Thank you.
I don't think I am anywhere close to that level of discipline; on the contrary, LadyCrimson's post made me realize that its severe lack may have been feeding into the entire issue. Even though I have some pretty standard working hours, I still feel like it all blends together with my downtime into one boring mush, and as a result, I can't ever rest. It's a trivial complaint, perhaps, but it sure feels like I'm getting pointlessly tired for reasons I can't even pinpoint, as if every hour somehow turns into two, evaporating somewhere. Amazing superpower, isn't it? Getting tired from doing nothing.
In any case, thank you for your positive words. I'm happy that you managed to crawl out of your own pit and, for the most part, beat back whatever demons have been holding you back. I wish you all the best and hope you'll stay on that good path - you've crushed your nihilism, and that's no small feat.